raison detre

why recurring dilemma? simple, I have procrastinated to a point where all things headed south =D.

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

IN THE ARMY~

Wow cant believe it, my peers are clearing their leaves etc... 1 19 working days 2 40 working days and i still got 190+ working days >.> why why i enlist so late. should have gone to ninja get tortured until like fuck =X

ok besides that, i like to applaud to Thais for playing on despite the very very bad refereeing decision they deserve a draw but oh well think their better thru out and playing on a different level though I feel singapore team work very hard harder than the thais, skill wise we gave them too much ball and many bad passes. I must say the penalty was excellent.

Must pray for the courageous singapore fans who are going up to thailand this sunday, may u come back in one piece and if u dun blame it on that poor referee who stands there for like 10 mins.

okie, leave the rest for another post.

Sunday, January 28, 2007

>.< i couldn't login to blogger.com for like days finally thanks to mozilla firefox, IE sucks.


Well after my outfield, i am back to work like usual. But there are quite some changes. my IC is going to training cadre, a new guy is taking over and he happen to be close to me, along with a new 2IC. haha shiok now got more people to share responsibilities with.

Maybe i dont talk much about work cause I am in the military but well at last friday's dinner, they were all saying my 2IC and how he one person manage the whole workshop. LOLX, i was a bit eyesore cause he a little zhuo bo lan and I was clearing all the shit, but hmmm if they say like that means I have contributed a lot for him to get so much credit. Now my camp reputation in base is the highest, always has been but now its at a all time high.

Besides that, I am finally getting the ORD mood. No more exercise to ORD lolz now just sit there relax in front of the damn com.

I decided to quit gaming already, I have spent too much time on it and its getting me nowhere, this year I'm going to start studying. use it on something more meaningful.

ok before i eat back my words, i find that i have too much time to kill >.< ok read my java book =.=

Friday, January 19, 2007

VINDICATED

Hope dangles on a string

Like slow spinning redemption

Winding in and winding out

The shine of it has caught my eyeAnd roped me in

So, mesmerizing and so hypnotizing, I am captivated, I am

Vindicated

I am selfishI am wrongI am rightI swear I'm right

Swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well

I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear

Like the diamond in your ring

Cut to mirror your intentionOversized and overwhelmed

The shine of which has caught my eyeAnd rendered me

So isolated, so motivated

I am certain now that I am

Vindicated

I am selfishI am wrongI am rightI swear I'm right

Swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well

I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So turn up the corners of your lips
Bite them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment for forever
Defense is paper thinJust one touch and I'll be in
oo deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away

Vindicated
I am selfishI am wrongI am rightI swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

Like hope
dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

(Nice song, let me slip away :) )

Monday, January 08, 2007

Wah!!! =))))))

OMGZ! i cant believe it, i click on friendster's friend of friend which is randomly selected users who are my fren's friend and pop come this girl that i look and look and seems very familiar.

somemore she not even third stage friend's friend completely out of my circle lor. Then the more i look, i go msg her....

Yii Xue wrote:
> Hey are you angela, the one grad from SP, haha sorry if not cause i think u look like her.

She wrote:
Yes.. i am her. haha... =)


OMGZ! thats like i hit 4D. coz u know how i know her? It was a dare between me and my band mates to ask her number.... i think it wasn't me who asked but i commented something like she quite hot then my band former bassist go ask her.... wahaha! i did chat quite a few times with a in SP after that, lolx but i lost contact with her until now lor coz i replace her number with another angela >.<

Besides such luck..... I am suppose to be in camp now but i just finished my theory test.... and wah1!!!! i passed!!!! so lucky considering i read only 78 pages out of 120+ omg omg omg!!! =X ok la cannot hang around liaoz must go back to camp for KTV and beer drinking. Wow Army really shiok haha.

Monday, January 01, 2007

the philosophy of life

this is probably for myself to read and learn, (sounds like gp)

what is it like to be human, u eat u sleep u play u study, basically u are just living in whatever way that the human colony has structured it for u. Unlike ants, we have a lot more freedom and a lot more space to travel. With technology we are truly global, u can know instantly whatever happen in one part of the world, fly there in a concord jet or contact a associate there with telecommunication devices.

But even with all this power at our fingertips, are we still an worker ant, trapped in a colony system that is far advanced and to them ants as big as the galaxy? I do not know, maybe we are really masters of our own destiny and to succeed and find true meaning in life we must work hard up the social ladder, in all sense of logic and fairness. But is this fair, when u reach ur mid life, and suey suey u lose ur job? whatever u work for the past years in your life all gone. and whats left is a dead end job with sucky pay or go out and venture the world on your own.

What happens to those guys at the top, those who couldn't stop the oncoming crisis, the board of directors, the table of wise man, they either lose it all, stick thru it or sell their company shares to else where, well suck thumb, this is the way of life, the most popular alternative route leads u to communism and a life of greys, white and black.

So this is encouraging people to be entrepreneurs setting up buisinesses, but who is going to work for you, those who are deprived of even a slight chance of doing so. Well there u have it, leverage... money for time and effort.

I always had this thought, what if one day man wont work for money, well first of all to trade you need goods so u end up with a lot less stuff just to get ur daily meals, second, all those accumulated wealths with all the zeros at the back would be worthless, whatever they have leverage since the beginning of currency if any family tree had these incredible streak would be worthless, the banks who made a fortune out of every1s saving would start trading gold again, woo. ok that will never happen, so my conclusion is we shouldn't be feeling bad about it and lets stop worrying about money.

Money is essential in your life but there are more important things, like love enjoyment etc. Life is simply and experience whether u r rich or poor, sick or healthy, u enjoy new things, u do new stuff, u enjoy living another day, for the more unfortunate ones, that do not have the money to do their dreams well they just have to settle for something less. or much much much less in some parts of the world even not being able to live.

so now we have talk about time, effort, experience, love what else is there, maybe thoughts ideas etc etc. I like to summarize my point and my views of life. Life is a capital, u spend time, money, effort, buy experience, facilitate love i wont say buy. sell thoughts, ideas, etc FOC maybe? In the end who gain? Well all, we die with the experiences and sweet memories along with the bad ones, maybe even making a name for ourself in history remembered by others in the living, but will u remember ur everyday work and everything u had wasted to gain... nah.

What money cannot buy is priceless, =) for everything else there is ******card. (pls dun sue me :( )