my weekdays

On Monday, I couldn't sleep much coz i was waiting until 12 on Sunday to sms someone but i end up sleeping until 3 when i suddenly woke myself up coz i dreaming halfway and i suddenly realize it was someone's bday :P

I had a boring day at camp and i wish that my instructor had let us off earlier but oh well....

Went lanshop surf web play one game of warcraft... lan peeps are noobs.... i got my highest demon witch score first time ever...

I went EMO that night and I think I said some stuff which i shouldn't say but glad nothing like what happen few years back happened. Sorry =Xx

Tuesday and Wednesday I still felt like dying, thinking about being rammed down by a car and everything, I whole day down there EMO lor... lolz i think one of my camp mate really wanted to whack me up but you always get away with it when they know u r a karate, aikido judo martial artist. Chansey... show me ur tkd, we have a deathmatch bah just to settle it all.

While i was in that mood, someone really cheered me up... though she doesn't know it... I think that her cheerful smses really rub it into me.

Thursday was really my day, =)~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
pjc girls are hot..... ok, STop being a pervert. But its glad to be back at camp and its really heaven down there... Feeder, i'll kill u if u send me back to hell. :P Went bbdc to apply for basic theory...

Today Half day so i am back in ginza plaza haha ok everyone beside me are playing dota so i think i should merge in... buh BYe~

my weekend

My internet down, thats like wtf man... dunno when i be back online haha, but nvm about that a little update.

It was junsy's bday i was at jp shopping for her bday present and a new shirt, then suddenly she called... hahaha.... while i was in the changing room somemore.. she told me if i could help her get the cake for her... I of course said yes la... told me to meet linda at takashimaya at 4 p.m. which was about 1 hr 20 mins away... i immediately boought the shirt took the bus, run all the way home from bus stop, went bath again, changed, ran down flag a cab and was still 5 mins late =.=~ lolz she really know how to test my timing... and that wasn't the end.... after meeting the two young people... the girl was quite cute... the guy was err... ok... she showed me a foto of the cake and i help junsy pay... bad thing was i had 1 hour to refrigerate the cake...

so i blur blur walked out of taka onto orchard road thinking of how i could reach boat quay in one hour.... at first i was disorientated and didn't know where was the taxi stand but i soon got my bearings and headed for it... VERY CAREFULLY with the heavy cake in my hand.. i went to taka taxi stand to find it crowded.

I joined the queue and called edmund... hoping that he could give me a lift since he stay orchard but luck has it another sad fella has saturday duties... so i queued for about half an hour for a cab to boat quay..
after reaching i had some problem finding the restaurant but manage to found it... after that my hand was already shaking and i went to mac to have a drink and cool down.... i walked a bit and got to admire a sculpture by salvador dali.... nice piece of work.. even for an arts idiot.

That girl is always late... i think i waited for her one hour plus but i manage to get something from funan for her... >_> end up buying the same stuff as her close sisters... when she finally came, er i blew balloons for her and help decorate stuff, i didn't mind doing all that but i was uncomfortable with her parents around....

hmmm i didn't know anybody down there and her relative came early so i practically was down there speechless for the early part but after the rest came it was much better... haha i 1 year plus never sing KTV liaoz so i didn't sing finish a song cause i forgot them all....

I went back with fang and lei lei after that... fang was nice, she offered to send me and lei lei to dhoby ghaut... where i met flint and marvin... i felt bad leaving so early but er i think i very extra lor her jiemei will the only one there..

sunday i went blading with flint and yanling... lolx at the two :P flint kept falling at the start he basically speed too fast and couldn't control turning while yanling couldn't control going up and down terrains... i ended up coaching the two of them but after i taught flint how to turn he could go smoothly liaoz just that while we went down a slope he turned and banged into a bicycle and a fellow roller blader who turned out to be his friend LOL! hmmm i didnt fell down once but i was damn slow with that fucked up blades. nvm that i enjoyed ECP thoroughly and next time i shall go there blade again :)

After blading i almost fell like fainting.... suddenly my body esp kidney was aching and i felt giddy, temp shot up..... haha i had a hard time coming back from bedok... hey i go play dota laters :)

Sup peeps....

internet will be down for dunno how long, my dad had been using the houseline to fax and chalking up a lot of call time so when he clears it then i will have my internet back... anyway i am at a internet cafe now and the com really sucks... i cant tag on my own tagboard...

yyh: i thought u say it was free consultation x_X

anyway on thursday i had diahorrea for 7 times stupid mee siam, make me in pain for the whole day. I the whole week sick for three days already >_>.

alright dont think i have more to write =x

kelly clarkson - whats up lonely

"What's Up Lonely"
OoohI'm gettin' kinda close to you
Like a shadow I can't lose (he-ey-ey)
You've been hanging with me everyday (ay-ay)
Now your getting in my way-yeahh
I know you understand me
But don't you think that maybe
It's time to move on
What's up lonely
Seems your my only friend who wants to share my pain
Tell me heartache
What it gonna take
For you to leave me alone today
Just when I think that your gone
Your in the mirror looking back at me

So whats up lonely
Sometimes, i wish you weren't by my side,
can't you find another shoulder cause i wanna leave this broken heart behind,
we're both waisten to much time
Find someone else to rain on,
i'm really gettin tired of singin this sad song
whats up lonely, seems your my onlyfriend who wants to share my pain
Tell me heartache
whats it gonna take
for you to leave me alone today
just when i think that your gone
your in the mirror lookin back at me
so whats up lonely
don't wanna give you a reason, to hang around anymore
you won't be hurtin my feelins
if you find another broken heart you can lean on
Gotta go, gotta move on
Gotta go, gotta move on
just leave me alone
What's up lonely
Seems you're my only friend
Who wants to share my pain
Tell me heartache
What's it gonna take?
For you to leave me alone today
Just when i think that you're gone, yea
You're in the mirror lookin back at me
So what's up lonely?
Gotta go, gotta move on
Gotta go, gotta move on
Hey, yea, hey
What's up lonely
Seems you're my only friend
Who wants to share my pain
Tell me heartache
What's it gonna take?
For you to leave me alone today
Just when i think that you're gone, yea
You're in the mirror lookin back at me
So what's up lonely?

I finally get it..... =P

essence de vie

2 DAYS MC... =D nothing can be better.... but i really sick la... the flu bug is killing me. So bored have to wait until 6 before flint and chris can pei me play dota... sucks when everyone is in NS and u r left all alone.. junsy is out with sarah and i cancelled lunch with yj, coz i better not infect A level students with flu bug later cant study. Lolx how abt those NTU NUS students =X

I cant really think properly now due to the medication... my body is cold and my head is hot... the only person online chatting with me is angela, hmmm if i am the boss one day i going to block out the msn port... really wasting working hours =xX not forgetting all the web msn sites *evil*

watching muse video on youtube... they rock... SING FOR ABSOLUTION, a very nice piano piece... the band lead singer is also the lead guitarist and the pianist a very talented guy indeed.
the drummer seriously rocks(stockholm syndrome) and the bassist just makes u crazy repeating hard riffs at 160 beats per min(hysteria), not forgetting songs like plug in baby, apocalypse now, newborn and feeling good... ok i need some sleep now :)

totally pissed

i better clarify something before it becomes bigger, if u dun like my stand then so be it, I aint gonna apologise cause I never intended to chase ur gf and I had regarded you as my friend. To think that u would fuck me in the middle of the night on msn just becoz i told ur gf to inform u to come for my bday really pisses me off.

dude i already told ya i was talking with junsy on the fone.. and its been mths since we last had a long conversation so yea i maybe guilty of not informing u direct but do u expect me to hang up?

the jurong east incident, hehz i call ur gf cause is her first week at creative and i happen to be there coz i was having thoughts of visiting my dad, i ask her out for dinner and she told me ur there... if i hadn't ask her how would i know u would be there, its not like i ask her out for a date, she's my friend too and i was interested to know about her work at creative...

last point.. i'll be frank with you.. i haven't be organising anything for a long time, in fact i'm sick of it... i try to organise one big group last time with all my friends for bball and they buay gam here and there... i rather not organise... marv and jin min are doing the shit job now, so dun ask me why they never call u, i only be present whenever i can, and i hate playing gooseberry with you two =P

and ya if u r pissed i cut off contact with you n her, ask urself why. u r the fucker who msg me what i want 3a.m. in the morning after pissing me off on msn, what else can i think of huh?

feels alive and dead

i finally felt awoke but i felt i am dying... i awaken from this shit routine that happens everyday between camp and home.... awaken from how far i am from my goals and dreams and everything thats eating me away... and i feel i am going thru a slow decaying death.

less than 1 year left from ORD... and i have not move a single inch on my java programming... it has been dota dota clubs pubs movies night outs and everything... when will i finally do what i really really want to do....

the stress i feel at work really numbs me.... i have not worked so fucking hard at any of the temp jobs and to endure the rank difference really sickens me... everyday i come home i just want to throw everything down and relax..

i need a change of hobbies... accumulate wealth, free myself from all the problems that i am going to inherit from my father after ORD and really find something that i love to do. I'm not going to conform to society and end up 30 years older and barely surviving.

i may not have the talent, i certainly do not know the know hows but i am willing to learn. I will never want to eat my words... the past maybe cruel but its over. :)

update 2

on sat 2nd sept, yea i celebrated with my cousin, haha my younger cousin getting prettier sia, but sadly she in jc1 of the special stream program so is currently unavailable too bad! =P then my elder cousin also quite pretty as always but er dun think can intro bah 3 years older haha =X

well i watch my uncle recording of premeir league highlights, i got a feeling england really buang their world cup sia, go back premiership all kick so well.must be the bookie buy them like siao.

anyway after the buffet i went my friend's chalet... hooked up with chris, wow spotted another girl who plays guitar :)~~~~~~~~~~~~ but ok la think i can play some songs with her. But chris was the main man of the show, his guitar skill really better than mine a lot zzZz but good la we sing and he play chinese songs... most i haven't heard of =x After that i got a bit drunk cause of the stupid grape wine, then i went sleep a while woke up played guitar with chris again, stockholm syndrome by muse go search that up on youtube... electrifying.

we stayed over until 3 plus then all fell asleep i slept until 7 only cause i went toilet and came back to find my space taken up by two person legs -.-~ so yea......

on tuesday i went back on course, it was great to be back and yes we were slack slack slack =) do nothing only take in the information. Can tell that the instructors there damn pro better than my camp people 100x... ask them anything also they know one... after lessons we gone home early haha =) slack slack slack!

well skipped to saturday... i played dota the night before till 2... zZz woke up 7 in the morning then went back sleep till 9 went all the way to marine parade to see my auntie, met up with yong hui she quite tall now and she only pri 4 i think she taller than me when i was pri 4... went shopping with her and my aunt wah stress ar... that day was my birthday mah then my aunt everything also wan buy give me, shoes ar jeans ar long pants, they are damn ex lor... i 1 mth the most can only afford one -.-i tried not to buy as much as possible but then must give her face so did bought a few lor... haha 2 shirts 4 shorts 1 jeans and a belt... that is for 6 hr of shopping i think i hold back a lot le lor... i really pity pri sch students wah lau eh their sat is tuition or study one leh.... last time i also never like that... only at home read books on my own or watch tv...

i think among all my cousins i enjoyed the most freedom and the most independent =.=~ all my aunts worry for me... help me wash my clothes and help with my room =.=~ i really am quite fortunate..

anyway after shopping with my aunt i met up with my friends as i had treat them to dinner at coca... was happy that i could return to the restaurant after so many years.. haha used to go there with my parents when i was young cause we and a hong kong couple always went there to eat... i love the food there and i always wanted to go back to eat.. haha glad i could intro it to my friends too... i was quite happy that day cause i could thank my friends who been there and done that for me...could have called more but sadly i dunno wtf that guy wants. nvm after that went see show with the guys, junsy went for fang's bday while yj went home due to some personal matters... =xX too many guys is it? well watched the breakup, nice show indeed, teaches u the Donts in a relationship had a sad ending but i guess it ws still sweet esp they met years after that.

monday went NUH with dad he couldn't walk well so i had to take him for checkups he insisted on driving there and he nearly bang the car in front of him coz his leg couldn't hold the brake pedal zZz i told him to take taxi next time.

Today i came back and almost wanted to puke he shitted on the floor all the wya to the toilet... heng i didn't eat my breakfast and lunch and dinner or else i would have puked it all out... spent time cleaning it up and i couldn't stand it i had to gaggle my mouth and washed my nose to get rid of the shit smell.... ZzzzzzzzZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZzzzzzzzzzz i ended up going downstairs to get some fresh air and bought a h2O to burp out the gas..... fucking disgusting real damn fuck up.... but boh bian he cant walk so cant blame him =.=~

updating

been trying to forget how pathetic my august end so i wont write in here! must thanks all my fren for tiding me thru that time. My sept rocked. Literally. Sept 1st: read my RO and happiness, i was on course from 5th to 27th woohoo slack slack slack! Sept 2nd: Went for my friend's wedding, first time at a malay wedding, the food was great and actually i find the environment better than chinese wedding coz got a lot of open space but yea la not as grand as in an hotel though...

after that celebrated my birthday with my aunts and grandma at her house. ate a peanut chocolate cake... then had buffet Went Woey Perng's chalet after that and stayed over.

need some sleep... update again later