updates.

Lately been doing nothing, pissed with the blog server, just hope this post gets stored cause i hate rewriting again. Like I said, this blog is my thoughts, I just hate the feeling of losing it to time. In another words, i dont understand myself and purpose and i guess the best way to understand myself is through my own thoughts and behaviour no matter is induced by an object or thru daydreaming.

Just watch an anime about timespace, haha the kind of futuristic thoughts like parallel universe and whatever, no matter what it is, I think time is not a matter dimension as in its not a physical dimension but one linked to consciousness, if everything on earth is dead, parallel universe wont exist too as everything does not have a will of its own and a rock will always be that rock and it wont move due to earthquake etc. unless earthquake can also be something that happens in one timespace and not another... hmmm.... maybe like a drop of water which might end up at another location in another timespace... hahaha i am going crazy.

Anyway those thoughts are just fuel for me, a deep desire in me to leave this country, away from this society where even the education is structured for the industry, I hope there is a place on earth that you can really be at the forefront of science, its a place i yearn for and a place where my hunger for knowledge will be satisfied. I know i am no genius of sorts, maybe just a lunatic with an ego but who is to define genius except those who could envision something that no one else on earth is aware of.

Nevermind being unaccomplish this life, the journey is all that matters.

fed up

damn it
i couldn't post anything yesterday and my previous day post appeared twice....
heh cant take it anymore ~_~ go to bed

Random thoughts

haha had a real conversation today in like months, work are work aside and questions and answers aren't really one, even listening to someone pouring their heart to you aint it, even discussing everything under the sun doesn't qualify. What i meant are constructive conversations like sharing past experience, ur goals etc. Its like i can read everything that a book tells me but i still know shit about the people around me. So yea had one like in mths =)
It was actually my platoon mates sharing their past experience in relationships. ahha actaully it sorta started out cause we find one guy truly a weirdo and wanted to ask about his experience with girls. So we used peer pressure to extort it out saying that u go first we go clockwise everyone say. Muahahahahaha! My unit has a lot of weirdos in it (PS: to all who know me personally, i am definitely normal compared to some, meaning they are off the scale weirdness)

Anyway those guys are quite innocent, gawd they are inexperienced surpass secondary sch kids.
But there is this one guy who had quite a lot of experience and he told us about his past relationships. It was very saddening, his first was most probably a materialistic girl and from his account was really jialat, taking the money he save and earn.. his second was even worse as his gf came from a broken family and had previously slept around before for financial assistance before meeting him. Knowing this and as they were long term freinds he still accepts her but during their relationship she cheated on him and well it broken off. I could see his eyes swell and turn red while he was telling us his experiences, I respect him for being so open as i didn't say anything myself cause we ran out of time bLeahx~ =P anyway what relationships with girls do i have, most are platonic most probably due to the fact that since young i hadn't spend a single moment on earth with room for a girl and end up chasing those that turn out to be dead ends.
Lol.

Relationships

sighz, i read an article today about relationships and why couples divorce. Its like if you argued more instead of avoid things would be better =.=~ weird logic but from it i feel that I probably wont thrive in a marriage, so i should avoid it and be a bachelor instead. haha who knows maybe i might meet someone that will bring out the other side of me =x

global dimming

watched a documentary on channel newsasia just now on how pollution has actually lowered the temperature of the earth. The documentary is here, you could read it.

before you wander off as to what i just said, yes the earth is still facing global warming, the greenhouse gases that traps heat in the climate but on the other hand, there are some pollutions causing the earth surface to receive less sunlight by a bout 25% compared to 1950s, according to a israeli scientist who did a study on sunlight in 1950s and 1980s.

So how does this occurs? its due to the aerosol particles which we polute to the environment that reflects the sunlight back to space, reducing the amount of light going to the earth surface, thus reducing the temperature. Although this might be a good thing, a study done by a american scientist 3 days after the september 11 attack which saw american airspace closed to commercial airplanes, the temperature range of the highest temperature in the day and the lowest recorded across america, rise about a degree celcius which was the highest recorded change in 3 decades, that means you will have to pollute the environment to sustain the temperature. The bad news about this is that if we were to keep up with the pollutions, it will still lead to global warming eventually so the only solution is to cut back on greenhouse gases emissions to sustainable levels.

Here is the link on global dimming including a research done on the climate in the maldives.

soccer !@~#$

after playing so many years of basketball, even in secondary school and primary i tried my hand at soccer, nono my legs. Playing against all the pros... no i shouldn't say pros, the veterans my seven a side street soccer cannot even survive 1 min as we were playing golden gold rule. it was like my side didn't know how to play or the better ones were at the front and left the defending to the uninitiated. First time we played we were closed to a min when the last guy lost the ball and the one guy up front kicked it in... the second one was worse >_> one of the guys run all the way up without support kick it to the opponent and the opponent scored.

i guess from now i just watch them play instead ha.. with the four and a half week left in camp before i get posted out again, i worry for myself as i will be going to another camp all by myself and no one i will know down there. Maybe its better to stay here with the rest of the guys. sighz.

sick ed

Woke up 5.30 a.m. in the morning coughing non-stop, i went to the bathroom spitted out as much fleme as my mouth could cough out and still i was coughing, i kept coughing all the way thru preparing to go to work. I wanted to go see a doctor but well since we were not allowed to report sick outside i had to go see the camp doctor.

I coughed very badly till the point that i almost had an asthma attack, lucky i knew how to control my breath and i held onto it as long as i could so as to stop the rapid breathing, i dunno if its effective for anyone else with asthma but this is how i do.

anyway i see the doc and he put me on nebulizer, aside from that.... he never give me a MC or anything, crapz i could be in my bed resting and not worried about my breathing moving here and there and here i am working in camp coz i chose not to see a doctor outside =S I was quite weak the whole day, must be the neb's side effect, my hand felt weak and i couldn't do things well, the joint still feels slight pain while i type.

ah well, aside from that i'm been wondering what format should i adopt and how should my post be organised. seems like i could stop using css since i found out the hidden variables that blogspot uses to display my post profile etc. but even with that info i cant decide on formats and graphics enhancements, mainly flash or java media format =.=~

its another sunday xD

haha i love sundays, its the day where I go for my karate classes and get to see eye candies. My whole class except for one other guy is all japanese, and well there is one beautiful girl and another cute little princess in it *_*. ahHa but ok la, its not like i can speak their language and till now i never hear them speak english except for another girl whom i hadn't see for ages. well as a martial arts buff, I liked the sensei a lot. He is from japan and has a singaporean wife and kids
(dunno how many though) Never ask him what dan but practically almost all the black belts in singapore know him so i think he has been teaching very long.he has a very good stance and somehow when i see him applying the technic its like i cant think of a more correct method of application.

A little history on myself, I trained 5 years in aikido and 1/2 a year in judo, karate is my third art though my dad always say i cannot make it in judo so i should not say i learnt judo before >.<
He 20 year black belt what!! so much diff.

anyway i find karate the most basic of all this three and the easiest to apply but the most concious to stances. Its like anyone can apply a punch, but how u throw a punch without getting caught off balance, how u from a punch carry on with a kick or how u throw a opponent off guard with combinations. I am only a junior belt but with a background of aikido and a tiny bit on judo i know the importance of all this, its like if actual combat u threw a punch and never move on he is going to catch you off guard and counter you with a arm lock or a slam.

going to change the feel of the blog soon, the format is too basic

WEeeEEe

Finally scrollbar added... took me 2+hrs to find that stupid code name... apparently this blog is using css and html, and all the while i was looking for html codes which was SCROLLING="yes" but css was overflow: auto zZz but all the same haha, apparently those sites which provide the codes DO provide them but u have to cut n paste and end up u lose the blogspot orignal format haha (I went to fay's blog to find the scrollbar code and her source code is so darn messy)

so well now i get to maintain my ergo proxy background and need not worry that the post will duplicate another of the background at the bottom xD

I seriously prefer java language to this css/html combination its like u dont know which format will apply to what =.=~ oh well i'm going off now

haha finally fixed the scrollbar, aparently the main language is css, just that they had to put into html format for browsers to read. My site is still mozilla firefox unfriendly cause i having problem identifying this site as a css enable site.

as of now..

well, looked thru the codes of the blogsite, seems very chim, they are using a language other than html and i still haven't figured it out yet... probably java or xhtml, but well aside from that i guess most prob i will be able to setup in no time.. =D

well, watched finish canvas 2 today and its ending was nice as the two cousins ended up together. Starting on Fate/Stay night good graphics but story a bit crap haha. They have seven magicians and various classes of "apprentice" but should carry on maybe it would get interesting.

Aside from entertainment, i started reading about stocks, and i found that knowing a stock counter is not only by price but by the strategy the company adopts. Forget about P/E, if cost rose and demand for products drop it will still do bad, it all depends on what the company is focus on, guess i have to rethink about investing in stocks for awhile.

"Intelligence without ambition is a bird without wings." C.Archie Danielson

My first post

I not so sure if anyone does introductions to blogs but heck with it, i'm 20 this year and I am currently in National service. What my intent is just to fill up entries and maybe laugh about them later. But i bet this is going to be very plain indeed heh.