recurring dilemma

what in this life do i live for? what are my goals? am i just one of the rest who aren't able to fight against systemetic pressure to get in line and end up living a life that is in line with the governance of capitalism, of consuming and producing with no further means and abilities. Indeed i yearn for power, the power to change but i do not know my place. i'm just procrastinating, watching everything go by waiting for all other possibilities to collapse and let the system drain me out.

i somehow wished that humans would bring about its own demise, but i guess thats not for me to wish for or answer, a 7 billion population is indeed hard to control and i guess that as the system runs longer there are bound to be more entropy and i guess that money is fair in the sense that u can buy some worldly freedom with it and that those without it either work for it for the rest of their life or strike it big. It concerns me though that money is without a backing. if ur nation fails the paper becomes paper literally... so nations will have to assert their might in other ways and world war II might repeat itself. then again when u are poor, u cant even conquer ur neighbours so i guess the phrase the rich gets richer and the poor gets poorer does applies.

fuck it, i'm sleeping thats all of my thoughts

PS: i aint no communist