mellowing my life away

my october really sucks, everything is against me, is as if my life is a joke, i feel so used, so tired and so depressed. I have nothing to do at home, i am piled up at work in camp, and it seems like all my friends have their own stuff to do and i feel damn lonely. I dont know if i have the strength to go thru it but why am i suffering, why? I hate growing up.