a little bit of disregard

With my excuse from staying in, I think i have become the second biggest villain in my section for chao keng. Its ok that i post to external units, its ok that i Siam almost every single shit that base, its ok that I am a key personnel and my warrant very take care, but when so many people stay in including my camp mates, =.=~ i feel bad that i siam it.

But what the fuck man.... My reason is valid, i really need to buy my dad food everyday as he cant walk. Since i already bought it up I should just forget about it. :P Now all that is left is six pull ups, sorry cannot sing KTV everyday with you guys

Yesterday while playing bball, i felt lost. We were playing 4 v 4 and although i was in the team, I just stand down there looking at them play, my team even without me won, but i felt useless, keep on turning over to the opponent. I just end up standing there passing to them, not even marking at all. It was like i suddenly wanted to go home and sleep. haha super no life lor.
End up i did go home to bring the chee hwee to my dad.

Yesterday someone told me that my dad feel worse fighting with me, Maybe thats true, maybe not i dont know, but i never see him walking to the ten floor and just look down to the first. Probably i'm just weak and he is strong, or maybe my freedom was depended on him last time i dont know which is which. Anyway its all in the past now, my dad cant even fight with me anymore, so i gotta take care of him, but somehow I still never want to get too close, another friend did warn me before that i may regret later coz his condition like can never improve liaoz.

When i hear you cry, I felt like the clock turned back time...