A theory on life

Life to me as a child was aspirations, dreams and ideals. As a child is easy to follow ur dreams, u just have to think of what u want to be imagine how u r there and what u going to do, u take each day with full of ur hopes and dreams and u know one day u will get there.

Not so easy in real life though. I was bright, young and talented, top in maths in my pri sch, had all the toys that i wanted. I knew that one day I would think of something to change the world, I knew that I got the mind to envision great things even multi processing of images motion and possibilities. I could picture four diff settings at four diff places at a time. I tried picturing 6, but i guess thats when i first met my limit. I broke down. Literally mad. Started hearing voices, lost control laughing during exams, became depressed. I still was brilliant but i was mad. I started envisioning apocolypse... imagine a primary five kid envisioning dooms day. I became consumed everyday thinking of how do i prevent it. What were the possiblities?

Well, i running off topic here, shujun this is my advice for u, life is like a never ending stream of water, sometimes u want to flow to the big ocean but u got stuck in a puddle, other times u got block by a rock or what and after persistence and applying more pressure on the rock u flow thru, other times there is no way but to divert your flow off course but still flowing.

I started young with a lot of potential, but where i end up is mediocre not because i didn't follow my dreams is because thats what life lead me to, u may think i am lazy, i can study but ya i chose to slack and end up here. But the truth is i ran out of steam, i made some tough choices stand my ground but only to realise that the only way forward was to give up on them so that i can live better than to stagnate as a puddle of water. Juns at a point of time, i knew my whole life was u, every breath i took became harder coz ii was beating for u, but i had to lose myself, let it all go cause i already knew i will nv swim in ur ocean. *_*